It got me for a day or two. I felt overwhelmingly down, coupled with ridiculous client demands. But I got over it. I talked to a couple of friends, rationalized it in my head and then I wondered, why do I think it's negative? At least I'm not a psychotic slave driver, like some other people I know/heard about.
But most importantly, because it's true. Because I have certain expectations, both of myself and the people around me, I expect efficient delivery and a strong grasp of things. And because I came from the media owner side of the business, I know the workings and push my media vendors hard. So while I may ask nicely sometimes, my requests still demand efficient delivery.
So what do I do now? I need to hold back my impatience and not let it show, be nicer, pepper my conversations with lots of "empathy" words. But deadlines? Not much I can do there with the ridiculous crazy client demands.
And where does this lead me? I wonder. I wonder if the 4 years away changed me. Not in a bad way. Just changed.
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