That's the best way to describe me now. Two years into my China stint and I am now more aware than ever of the huge cultural divide that prevents me from establishing real friendships here. Perhaps, some of them had chances for development but I was too conscious of not hurting anyone's feelings -- maybe they were never that sensitive -- and tired of being so ever "sensitive and accommodating" on my time off. I wanted to be the nice Singaporean who could adapt and fit in, instead of that brash Singaporean who could not adjust to China.

Whatever, it does not matter now. Because I have decided that it's time to say goodbye.

Soon.